Wednesday, April 05, 2006

Look Ma, I'm an MA!

I was desperately waiting outside the English Department office for my turn to come. It was my viva for a dissertation in MA English. Exams, in whatever forms, always bring anxieties on us. Unexpectedly, the viva session was not bad. I was able to defend my thesis. Teachers looked satisfied with my answers as well as my research work.

An MA in English, for me was a dream deferred. Giving up my study at TU in the spring of 1998 (Then, they used to teach old course), I traveled to UAE in search of greener pastures without knowing what life could be.

When I came back to Nepal after 4-year hiatus in 2002 October, my disastrous English accent was little improved, thanks to the conversations with English/American and Indian customers and my mostly Asian colleagues at Dubai Airport's McDonalds outlet. Back in Nepal, I hastened to join MA (this time at RR Campus). I found out that the syllabus has undergone a sea change. Now, an MA in English stumbled and managed to dabble hitherto unknown Derrida and Foucault, Creative Writing and Non Western Studies. Whether we were prepared for such contemporary and theory-laden course is still debatable, though.

This English phenomenon, on a guy who learned his A B C D only in class four, who passed his SLC from a Nepali medium school, came from a background of Brahmins who considered English a "Cow eating Language" (Gai Khane Bhasa), obviously takes me down the memory lane. Since when did I become an Anglophile? It must be the years of love-hate relationship with this foreign tongue.

But, when I read the best of English writing coming from 20 something ladies, armed with boarding background, ready to dazzle their male friends with mastery over this language, I can only lo and behold! Namely, fellow bloggers Abhipsa and Zade (in other words, A to Z of English). Three cheers to them, before I turn self-congratulatory. I wonder how they learnt this difficult language. Did they learn it in their mothers' womb? Or, did it come to them like music to a musician, song to a lyricist? When did they mug up all the phrases and diction? I, for one, still find myself a slow learner. The spellings you never master; the idioms that make you idiot and the meanings as varied as people's name. Ah, English!

Last Sunday morning, as my teachers complimented me for excellent thesis, I was elated but unsure of what to make of it. It was an outcome of almost a year's hard work. I did a lot of writing, re-writing; my most Saturdays were spent in front of a computer which made my friends suspicious that why it was taking so long for the thesis to be completed.

My thesis on American writer Kate Chopin's novel The Awakening talks about how its protagonist Edna, frees herself from the clutches of patriarchal society at the turn of twentieth century America. I too am awakened and freed from my college-going experience. But, only to be chained in another cycle of learning, studying and writing, that I would like to do till the end of my life.

21 comments:

Anonymous said...

congrats dude!an MA is not a joke....
but then....i blushed to read my name in ur blog....i felt it lil derogative, lil misleading bout me.....u have adulated english more than neccessarily.....english is just a language like any other language.....n bully for them! who boast over mastering this language.....
my rapport with english is not less adventurous than urs......of course the english school background helps but what makes u learn is the passion, the glitters of the language that allures u.....n i know myself better than anybody else...n i know the degree of niceness of my language..... i have alot to improve.....like u , i too started my schooling from a govt school n learnt abcd from fourth grade.....after that, i read in an less than average boarding school....where their style was sugaratai....they made us learn everything ,from an essay on cow to application for leave ..we had to leran them by heart......n more, i was brought up reading only nepali litretures....but i feel so glad i have read many of the finest nepali writers tyo pani before 16.after then, i joined a business school where teachrs teach us in a way ki we forget the lil english we know..lol..... but what made me learn this language was the pursuit of a global dream, i wanted to get mixed up with the bhel of globalization...... but no..no more....the more i read n used english..the more i have strated disliking it.....i have become obssesed with nepali ,sanskrit n other ethnic languages.......i felt like crying when i realized that we have more than 90 indigenous language........because i m intrested more in nepali language n litreture n the likes, i want to do sth in the same feilds, now i have started learning french n sanskrit... i will be learning more languages......n i m satisfied with the lil meagre english i have......thr is no need for further expansion coz i m not going to make english my magi khane bhando,......but then i reiterate, english is not that big thing, it is the most easier , common, easily available ( now i think the cheapest, no offence!)language, n guys don need to worry n feel marginalized because of poor english, if u want to learn, it is too easy, if u dont want, you will never need it. but i don mean to say that complete mastery n refined expression in this language is that easy.....
anyway deep, u r a nice n sweet expressor , u r a fine writer, but then , i want to tell u that, be concentrated on ideas n motifs not on language, phrases, idioms or spellings, ok..languages should be used correctly but u should understand that languages r means n not ends.no body praises u ( at least i dont) for having a beautiful language but ppl appreciate ur opinions n what u want to convey .....n u better stop guessing ( wondering?) how other ppl might have learned a particular language because manchhe le k k garisake jabo bhasa siknu kunai thulo kura hoina....ppl learned english how u learnt, by craving to learn it passionattely, its not a magic,
n dont connect ur MA degree with only this gai khane bhasa, this language was just a means but what u learned is litreture n philosophies of the western world, u have learnt critical n creative thinkings n the likes.....u could learn it in any other language but its just a coinincidence that english happens to be the most appropriate language for english litreture.
do i read like preaching? lol.. take it easy man! u r in the feilds of words, u need english n u otta refine it, best of luck....n lastly, dont compare ppls writings n styles.... everyone is so differnt from oneanother...what u know i might not know n i might what u dont, thats all....
but Zade deserves what u putfor her ..she is one of the finest bloggers of our times......

this is all...celebrate life

p.s. life should be all the same even with broken knee n broken heart

Anonymous said...

A link to my blog from a journo cum blogger, and even a praise for my language!!! that is too much joy for me..Wait and the comment on zade from Avipsa..I can feel wings growing on my hands! Honestly speaking I don't know where to begin.I don't even want to write in Eng..Oh God! Why? Because look at my clumsy language that's why. The well cultured language of an MA.and all the rich vocabulary of Avipsa. Kudos to you man, I haven't been able to make head or tail of the "deja vu" U commented on my entry. I would love to read the Siddique book. N have a real nice name, both of them, Avipsa and Avinashi.Wondering how comeI know it? A little bird told me. And I would like to thank you loads and tonnes for the comment. I made my day, made my nites and indeed made my Life. Rt now am working on an article and have copied the last para I think the ur mind can scrutinize part on the top, I read it and get inspired, it keeps me going. Ur "Kathmandu is the face value of Nepal...." entry in the UWB months ago rocked. We talked a lot abt it in college, a fren of mine wrote I could feel my hair rise while reading the article comment on it too. Remembering all ur Comments on UWB I gather u are a sophomore too, correct me if I am wrong. If correct, high five we're classmates..that don't study in the same class hahah.Anyways Thanks once again.
And joining in the language conversation here English is a funny language ..it blends with people, attitudes, it is just too flexible..encompassing everyone in its ever widening horizons..languages are but the roads paved by you to let people walk into ur mind....I sometimes wonder how the world would be without it.....and Deepakji I think you are only being toooooooooo good, way tooooooooooo humble wondering of my mastery ( this is atyuktiko pani haad) of the language. Finest blogger..that one by Avipsa is an atyukti too... You guys are flowers..Fulko aankhan ma fulai sansara. Just some days back read Vijay kumar's article in Samay where he says..you don't have a future in journalism if praises is all that u get..I have no future i think..ok but I am not a journalist, but a generalist.haha.Safe then. Congrats Deepakji For ur Masters, all the best to you Avipsa for whtever u are involved in. You guys Rock!! So keep rocking and stay happy.
Laughter is the shortest distance between two people. So roar with laughter after readin this comment.ahahah..to yourself..like crazy.. :)
bye till the next comment..
ZaDe

Anonymous said...

Congratulations! You have done something that I feel I am unable to do in this life.

Anonymous said...

Excellent job. Nepalese males with good english are always rare.

.....but what is happening to ur blogs on the filthy politics of Nepal? ... I haven't got a chance to laugh since over a month.... i miss ur views on them.... (makes me laugh the way things are in nepal, and even people like u look at the leaders with hope... after all...)

Anonymous said...

I'm afraid I cannot even consider an undergrad in English let alone MA. Something to do with an inability to write essays that the professors could find satisfactory let alone extraordinary =)

As such, a degree in English is quite a feat in itself and an MA even better - Congratulations!

Deepak Adhikari said...

Thank u all beautiful people for ur hearty compliments. I wonder if I deserve that truly. I was thinking about answering u all personally over here, but gave it up thinking that u have created ur own space here and I can not and should not outcomment u all. Zillions of thanks!

Anonymous said...

I do not know mR. DEEPAK, whether u will be surprised to see my comments here.Anyway, u may not be.There is nothing in ur blog worth of commenting but still.........Good that U are going to get MA Certificate and I hope that U have valued Knowledge more than MarkSheet and transcripts and Certificates.If U have, Good. In Today's age, it's not a big deal to get MA who does little more efforts but What i appreciate here is ur enthusism to study after a long break.In different situation, after gaining some experience of life in dubai, if they were not gained in Nepal, U decided to study and completed it.This approach is praiseworthy. U can be one of such examples for those who just stop studying without any reason much less of any problems........After reading ur Blog, we know that U did ur MA in English Language and u submitted Thesis ( Dissertation in proper word) on work some authors. I, and I hope people like me but not sure how many, would really like to read an average essay about ur disertation.What u wrote there, and on what aspect u focussed on.U could bring Light on which notion of Literature fascinated u more and How u feel people can unravel the intricacies of Medium and its message.........U may take ur time but I hope U will write some blog on ur disertation sooner than later.When U have written such a good Dissertation( As ur professor complimented u), then it obviously deserves some place at least in Ur Blog............
All the best for Rest of The Thing........
At last, I would love to read the views/voices of Abhipsa too, if s/he(I hope She.I am bit confused here). starts blogging

Anonymous said...

Earlier comment is by Me.I am 1whocandie4u.Please read with correction in My Name

Anonymous said...

hey zade! a high(est)five(ten?)for our virtually established mutual admiration society!lol
abhipsa, avipsa, avinashi....ah! this web of names! i m feeling like the spider that sucides on its own web........anyway...obviously u have shocked me to hell, my eyes really popped out of my head when u caught me....i yelled deepak if it was he who spilled the beans....but the poor whipping boy denies the allegations....n i feel dizzy....i greeted my teeth to kill the revealer...but alas, the word is so small....anyway...one thing really reveled me that u know me anyway, i mean i m glad u know avipsha n avinashi too.....ok
i m glad u read my blogs.....thnks a lot yaar...n yes, i m also a regular sneaker of ur blogsite, the twinsisters one was really sweet....
everyone knows (including myself) how i m notorious as a word-tank, gys..this usually happens when u try to learn englis on ur own n when ur only straw is that dictionery.... lol.....ok, u might not have got the head or tail of deja-vu, but i dont eat my word here, i m pretty sure i used that word for no pomp, it really expressed my feelings..... anyway........s zade, i m a sophomore till tody( don know what will happen tomarrow).....n i know u r too.....i m not writing anymore blogs these days coz i m undergoing a severe ordeal these days....i tried to crack smile on ur request but i cudnt ...nono...i m not making myself pathetic...
keep on writing...n let us read....i love to read u much.....

oh 1whocandieforu.....
u still ready to die for ur 1? lol......i remeber u, i remember ur comments on my bday blog... but i wonder what made u comment like that....n i m still wondering why u turned that rude towards me when i was replying u that polietly......anyways.....for ur kind info, i m a she, n i prsume thats what u r....for one of my frens said no one but a hardcore feminist comments like this(no offend plz)
i n enjoyed ur argy-bargy with deepak, our deepak , poor deepak.....keep it up.....he needs few candid n precise hitters like u ......otherwise...see , he bullies on we poor polite n humble souls....
n deepak she is rt, u should post blogs on ur dissertation.....
let me call it a day........

Anonymous said...

hey zade! a high(est)five(ten?)for our virtually established mutual admiration society!lol
abhipsa, avipsa, avinashi....ah! this web of names! i m feeling like the spider that sucides on its own web........anyway...obviously u have shocked me to hell, my eyes really popped out of my head when u caught me....i yelled deepak if it was he who spilled the beans....but the poor whipping boy denies the allegations....n i feel dizzy....i greeted my teeth to kill the revealer...but alas, the word is so small....anyway...one thing really reveled me that u know me anyway, i mean i m glad u know avipsha n avinashi too.....ok
i m glad u read my blogs.....thnks a lot yaar...n yes, i m also a regular sneaker of ur blogsite, the twinsisters one was really sweet....
everyone knows (including myself) how i m notorious as a word-tank, gys..this usually happens when u try to learn englis on ur own n when ur only straw is that dictionery.... lol.....ok, u might not have got the head or tail of deja-vu, but i dont eat my word here, i m pretty sure i used that word for no pomp, it really expressed my feelings..... anyway........s zade, i m a sophomore till tody( don know what will happen tomarrow).....n i know u r too.....i m not writing anymore blogs these days coz i m undergoing a severe ordeal these days....i tried to crack smile on ur request but i cudnt ...nono...i m not making myself pathetic...
keep on writing...n let us read....i love to read u much.....

oh 1whocandieforu.....
u still ready to die for ur 1? lol......i remeber u, i remember ur comments on my bday blog... but i wonder what made u comment like that....n i m still wondering why u turned that rude towards me when i was replying u that polietly......anyways.....for ur kind info, i m a she, n i prsume thats what u r....for one of my frens said no one but a hardcore feminist comments like this(no offend plz)
i n enjoyed ur argy-bargy with deepak, our deepak , poor deepak.....keep it up.....he needs few candid n precise hitters like u ......otherwise...see , he bullies on we poor polite n humble souls....
n deepak she is rt, u should post blogs on ur dissertation.....
let me call it a day........

Anonymous said...

Hi Avinashi/Avishpa
I am really surprised to know that U still know that little first verbal spat between us in ur, may be first, blog in UWB. I wonder why and how u posted such a comment when i truly posted what i believed it true to be. And u also wondered when u saw my cooments but , i dunno know why? U think that u answered me politely and I became rude. That’s what I was/am thinking here. Why u became so rude? But, i feel good now u still remember me and those cruel comments. But i genuinely think that i gave very apt comment. I liked ur birthday blog but it was crowded with more words and phrases and etc. Leave it these are the things of past...........
And i am really happy that u talked about my comment with somebody to guess my nature and gender and ur fren was quick to guess, enunciating her/his own reasoning skill but that’s not true. I am not she. I am He-Man, and not hardcore feminist.
N how is life going? life refers to ur blogging not bluffing journey. I think u did not write any more blogs after that b'day one. That may be because of majority including I commented in a way that was beyond ur imagination. If that is true, What can I do???? It is fault on ur part coz in every step of life, there may be people who comments negatively, just u have to forget....n again thanx, u did not forget me even when i commented so badly(U feel that i commented badly, i do not feel. I stand firmly on my views even today what i wrote that time though i can not recall in verbatim what i wrote at that time.)
Hope that in near future, I can see more blogs by u...........N Mr. deepak sorry, if i made ur blog conversation forum....n u Avispa, I hope if time permits u, U will make an endeavour to reply me in this blog
N Nothing more, about me, I am a student and a guy, not she ok........I study in India. I do not have anything more to tell about me coz i do not have anything more than this attached to me even not as much attributes as u have......U are at least a blogger, I am not even that.
Before conclusion, I regret the problems that this blogger site(main provider) faced while I earlier typed some comments but eventually lost everything before posting.........what an irritating day , in fact night it was,

Deepak Adhikari said...

Abhipsa and 1whocandie4u (waiting for Zade's comments),

Ur comments made my day. But, it surprised me to know that 1whocandie4u is a male! I was smelling a feminine fragrance in his(?) comments.

So Abhipsa, am a poor Deepak, huh? U people bask on ur own discovery. And, 1whocandie4u, contrary to ur assumption, I want u people to comment more and make this blog indeed a forum. This way we, living in different parts of the world, can share things.
Thank u all and keep dropping by.

Anonymous said...

Ok. Deepak, I am now surprised that u also felt(how, i do not know but may be ur hormonal processes showed some changes, heheh anyway)feminine stuffs in me even after chatting for a while in gmail some days ago.may be u were too sure and did not put that generally usual question to me "asl please?" Be sure that I am a He-Man.I am waiting Abhipsa's comments more than Zade(hehehhehe....)See U later

Anonymous said...

hey 1whocandie4u

we were succumbed to same fate....it was an irritating day too...i posted a long comment n that got collapsed.....bang goes comment!
i dare not deny......
ur comments were indeed apt n genuine......
keep on dropping in...it will not be long enough before i restart blogging.....btw,for ur kind info, the bday blog was not my first but last blog, i have written few more blogs earlier......n u will be the folest one on earth if u believe i stopped blogging coz u commented bitterly....very poorly said he-man! underestimate garnuko pani sima huncha ni yaar!.....anyways, if u want, catch me at
democrazy_peacemaker@hotmail.com

Anonymous said...

Ah..finally am being able to put all the pieces of the puzzle together. So it is you Avi..sneaking in and ah..requesting to see Hysh's blog..we two were trying to figure out who the character was. She will absolutely be thrilled once she knows it is AVINASHI, AKA AVIPSA DA GR8 HERSELF! By the way she is the one who commented that "made my hair rise" comment on ur blog. Aj kal kina bepatta ni. yesto blog readers haru lai tadpaunu ta bhayena ni dost!!
N I surely missed out on a lot by not droppin in here..Wht break from political babble..And Deepakji..ur blog is surely turning into some..platform for sth special..hehehehe. So the He-Man opps 1whocandie4U waitin for Avi's comments..Is this love? is this love that I'm feelin.wanna know wanna know now...hahhaha. just kidding dudes hope you digest this much of hawa guff. a break from all the intellectual babble around...But I feel lost in this conversation abt ur birthday blog though..Actually I am a toddler in this bloggin world..came to know of it only last Nov..u are the masters so I am feelin as if I stepped into a conversation of ghar ka thulathalu haru..hehe.

thanks for finding the twin thing sweet..and talkin of the great reveleation of ur name,am thinkin the sb who leaked the top secret is going to murder me first..hahah. but the guptachar never told me it was a top secret so wht's done is done hons..U a journo then? Kool profession dude..n the meaning of deja vu? you are yet to tell me that..I am supposed to be the know it all hahaha but hey help me be one.hehe. N HAPPY NEW YEAR 2063 EVERYONE!!

That was a kool card Deepakji, the one i.e. in ur blog too. that tree thing so creative. N I think ur joinin in the conversation goin on in ur blog is the Rt Choice baby..it encourages everyone droppin in ..huncha ni the feelin like so it means sth to the blogger pani raicha bhanera..

Lastly, Hey Avinashi..(Ur name Rocks) waitin DESPERATELY FOR U TO BE BACK IN THE BLOGGIN WORLD.n nothing to say to "the he-man", you weren't waiting for my comment anyway..haheheha..
Still hope u find sb worth dying for man!!

Anonymous said...

oho pyaari zade!
a wooden spoon for ur serendipity!
and i m no more mad with the bean-spiller ,actually i m more thankful to him, i just wanna kiss him(i beieve its him, n not a her) mmm...a very passionate, the Avinashi- special- smoochie...does it sound horrible,crazy n very unbecoming of me? let it be , let them be more makkha who believe i m a horrible n crazy gal!n let it be more unbecoming of me coz i m angry with the whole world,no no, dont catch ur breath, i m not angry with u.....u r just tangy, u just rock yaar!
AND let me announce (with gr8 honor) that i really meant it when i declared that u r one of the finest bloggers of our times!n i feel proud to say that i regularly read ur blog n comments all in ur own blogsite n in uwb....needless to reiterate that u really rock! u might be thinking y dont i comment if i read.....look, it is a fact that thr r times i desparetly wanted to comment on ur blogs....but thr r so many stuffs to cripple,gag n impend me....u know......see, my frens also do sneak into ur blog, s of course we discuss too....n i promise i will soon restart blogging n commenting n Tangy Zade, get prepared for a shock...gal, we have met somewhere u know , we have met on a particular occasion n place when our destination n purpose coincided, n all of ur frens.....n i have gathered ur names too(including ur frens)not only names, whr u study, what u do must of the times n much more about u....the world is so small u know, it is so tinY! and no, u cannot even imagine how did i gathered info about u n i know u will bite ur tongue in surprise if u see me somewhere "oh that gal was Avinashi !"n be prepared ,while crossing any road or street, i can approach u n say "HI Phalani!"(i think u don wanna get ur name typed here)ok lil hint, it was a girl ,who coincidently know u n me, both of us...lol..aint it funny!n gal, i m not a jurno, but i wish i were....i m just toiling to cross the tagaro of 3rd sem,dont get shocked, we both were 2058 slc graduate but what made me lagged behind a sem than u is the chasm between TU n KU.....not a big deal....k garnu yar saathi! A matrai lyauna paye ta...! ani s, i m not telling here the meaning of Deja-vu here , u can copnsult a dictionery n we will definitely discuss it later.....and let me tell u sth more, u know what, i was a quiet person, i always wanted to keep myself to myself, i didnt wanna come into limelight n controversy n i didnt wanna even argue with ppl, so i created this name AVIPSHA, i wish if only u had sneaked into uwb before a year ago ....that was fun u know, mine was a very much glamourous n glittering image...i used to comment candidly bout love, sex, feminism, monarch et al.....thr was lotta fun,flirts n fuss......n i started blogging....i wrote bout lil lil things...n comments that came were not different from how ppl r commenting on ur blogs rt now in uwb...thr were ppl quite like cheparos n ray of hopes....varitey was the spice......i was quite happy with AVIPSHA till i read ur blog about NY....oho! that touched me so much that......it built up much confindence inside me...i thought, if i cud write this good(i m not flattering hai) i would definitely not be using this wretched psuedonym.......of late i was facing kinda identity crisis too.....n i decided to beeilve in myself, no matter what they comment n say..i will write n will write with my own name, that creates more trust among readers(n thats what they emphasised on today's workshop)....n now i m not shying away to say i m Avinashi,literally IMPERISHABLE (thank u BUWA for this wonderful name, at least for me)n i have much faith in myself that i should write my best no matter what they comment.... n thanks ZADE,u Tangy gal , n much credit goes to ur rocking blog bout NY .....n i request u..tear this veil of animomity , disrobe ur robe, ungarb ur garb...n come into this forum with ur real self, real identity...so did u tried to request hyshyma rt! i just love this garl yaar... her sweet voice n that incredible smile ...oho! s, i say, lets join hands...lets mingle our voice.......lets rock! ..........n Tangy, u think 1whocandie4u is in love with me? i wish he is, u know, BlogBahini(she rocks too) says i still have many hearts to break before i finaally settle down lol, lol.....boys don cry.......n u know i might fall in love with him(wo(man)is polygameous by nature,i m true blue dude!)if only if his name was 1whocanlive4u....die..u can die for anyone....i can die even for that unknown hakku guy surfing net beside me in this cyber.....but i cannot live for him.... see to live for somebody is the toughest task in the world n to die for somebody is a triffle......

n deepakji, oops!deepak!, unlike ZADE i dint like the card u know, compartmentalization ko slogan birsiyo ki kya ho man!n (wo)man r
selfish by nature too, they need their own space too u know.....ok, happy new yr,...don worry u look much younger than what u really r n u r glowing much more....how come! fair n handsome lagauna thaliyo ki kya ho?anyways....je sukai hos! tara yo baisakhma ta hamilai jantebakhro khuwaunai parchha hai!no excuse!
ppl plz don mind.....only after finishing typing i realized i wrote much long weilded...phew! pooh! phooey! thats y i hate writing.....
guys! keep on rocking

Anonymous said...

Hey deepak, avinashi, daz,

I happen to float in here through the link in daz'z blog and lo and behold am I seriously shocked my name is in the entries above. I dont know if I ought to be happy or worried. *sigh*.

Avinashi, it really kills to know that someone knows u and u dont know them, it hurts almost. So plz...where have u met us?? How do u know us??? Was it at Martin Chautari??? I am guessing it was. And yo, I aint got a mellow voice, infact some ppl hate me coz I talk tooo much. hehe. I suppose u've heard that from someone too. *sigh*

Nway Deepak, nice blog, and keep blogging!!!

Take care all
Hysh

Anonymous said...

When I created my Username, I did not think that it could generate any discussion anywhere nor did I intend.Unexpected results have been seen and people seem to be interested in talking more about my Username than Content of the Blog. I pity on Deepak. Anyway, Thank u people for ur interest in my username. Now, i can expect more on my UserName.
And U avi, How many heart u broke till date? U sound to be a flirtmaster(no offence please).My good wishes are to u, try to be master not anyone's mistress.
And I can hear echo here that if I fall in love with u, U easily and very easily break my heart.Now, I wish. I really want to know whether any girl can break my heart.
There are two things that I have to say. That is there are two options:
1. (If we fall in love,) Once we fall in love, U may find me such a nice guy that U simply can not break my heart and can not go away.
If not first,
2. You may go away from me but I may have such a hard heart that it can not be broken at all, or i may have such heart that has been already broken so many times that Ur presence or abscence does not make any difference at all(Though I believe that I do not possess these types of heart.)Or, I may easily believe on substitution/Displacement reaction in life, So, may not care at all.............
I do not know which option will be possiible, nor I dare to adjudicate at this stage.I hope U readers in general and Avi in particular decide on this point. I do not dare to decide because my education till date says, "You shall not be judge in your own case."
And Deepak Ji, Thank u for mentioning my name in ur subsequent Blog. I hope that perfect maturity in the contents will be achieved soon. All the Best.

Anonymous said...

HAHAHAHAH..HOOOHOOAOHA for the mindblowing smoochie(it must be) of the great AVINASHI…If u ever smooched the guy hahaha ( yes he is a guy, a man in all his might hahaha.). He will flush beetroot red..hahaha.. I am literally roaring with laughter even with that thought. Lucky him, gf hunda hundai he gets Special Smooches from KTM hotties.
I love ur Spirit Gal! Your nonchalant attitude is already making me your fan. I’m already finding similarities …., just heard that the great Inrann Hashmi was planning to give up his Serial Kisser. Aka Smoocher Image now tht he is engaged..moved on to only doing intimates scenes re!!! You planning to replace him or wht? Nepali Film industry sure needs sth like that to draw audiences to it..hahaha.


The gr8 revealation. And Avi I am goddamn sure we happened to be at the same place and same time at Martin Chautari, the Rang de Basanti discussion. Now if it wrong then the Goddamn part will be an utter waste, still it never hurts to make an attempt. No I am sure of it Just so sure that I can’t say. We don’t leave our names and addresses everywhere. N I think u are related to Youth Initiative, just a hunch. NO man I just wanna be sure of that too. So the workshop taught it …hmmm.. I AM SO SURE!! HEHE Ani let us lay our hands on that CID ourselves ani dekhajayega…A gal hoina, ok though pizza n momo both rock (u must be knowing the joke then) will only send flying kisses to her..heheh. But wht I do most of the time N much more? Tht part is disturbing….Hysh’s mellow voice..I am damn sure it was MC.
Bloggin world ma ta ma bacchai chu.when I started checkin out UWB in last nov ho ki oct, I just forget I had come across people referiin to Avipsa but then of course bacchalai blog ways thaha thiyena ,,just felt left out ..teti ho. Tara hons u writing abt that NY stuff thing chahin I can’t believe. To be truthful, I never trust anyone complementing me.heheha..rog ho tara that is a good disease..

n i request u..tear this veil of animomity , disrobe ur robe, ungarb ur garb...n come into this forum with ur real self, real identity...

I am da kind of person tht easily gets motivated. N thank god I didn’t strip off my clothes after reading this comment thinking come on Open Up, let go , soar free. hehe. Still ZADE is sth I am embedded into ..I am caged yet I experience a freedom like never b4..I was also like wht u said a silent person..hahaha everyone will roar with laughter if they ever hear me say tht now. But I had to struggle a lot to break free from that image. I despised people, they drove me mad..and till date I find it easier to talk to many people, give presentations, speeches but it is like lifting a mountain when it comes to talking to one person..chattin is different though..writing is so much easier. So don’t feel amazed if I act edgy when u addresse Phalani to me on the road.

Lucky u, to be breaking young men’s hearts. Wht should I say for myself, Chance nai napayechi Ke garnu?haheheh..malai timro insight kool lagyo marna sajilo cha, bachna po ta dhama..still ke every lovebirds Romeo Juliet jasto ek arka ko lagi sacrifice garna sakchan.?You love ko kura kati garnu,..when in reality chahin lovelife never begins.! Bal ho, bhannaiparyo. When the fox couldn’t reach the grapes, he let go taking them to be sour! N I sure know Blogbahini, she always comments with a smiley face hoina. Tyo happy face le nai comment padhna man lagcha.

Hey who was it tht told me “vomittin in public place’ here I am doing it all over again. Ghar ma basda basda..baulayera lekheko. Apologies if you mind Deepakji.
Ok Avi hope to see u in the blood donation program of YI in whitehouse college …
Catch u there..ehehehe
J Zade ( I want to write my real name, yeah disrobe, ungarb man)

Anonymous said...

thank u zade,hysh,deep n 1whocandie4u
lets busry the hatchets......
but zade dahlin, i m too busy to attend the program, u know i m undergoing a workshop n that is consuming most of my time n u know, blood donation ma aayepani i cannot donate blood coz mero blood pressure low chha but i have some frens who always want to donate bllod, i will try to call them , n then s of course u guessed it rt, that chasmis gal in tops n jeans who talked bout adverse effect of booolywood culture ( but i know u ppl didnt much got convinced by my idea) was Avinashi, n but of course, i liked ur ideas n that gung-ho.....
hope u to meet some other time again in Mc , n next time much of my new frens (frens i gained in this new workshop) will also come, n we will rock together,
b-bye,

Anonymous said...

deepakji
Badhai chha MA ko lagi...........khoi hamro ta palo nai aaudaina jasto chha ............
In our context that is special although people say that work is more important than certificate.